My Saving Grace

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This week I just feel I need to write about what's on my heart. God is good. He has truly changed my life and my heart over these past eight months and it's so great to be a new person. I was born again (saved) at a very young age but my life hasn't always looked that way. I was never a "bad kid"; I never got drunk, partied, or did drugs, partially because I grew up around them, but my life never seemed to really magnify God. Until everything came crashing down in August of last year. It's crazy how God breaks down the walls in your life to get to you. I was practically engaged to a guy (he had the ring, already asked my parents, and we had a wedding date set) when he broke my heart. He told me that God had told him to let me go, not knowing for how long, maybe forever, but that I really needed to get back to my True Love and get my heart right with Him. Letting me be broken to pieces was the best thing my ex-boyfriend and God could've ever done for me. My ex truly loved me enough to not let me keep running from the One that loved me more than he did and he was obedient to the call that God had over our lives, no matter how hard it was going to be. Those last few months of 2010 were some of the hardest I have ever faced. Feeling so alone, but yet seeing God work and move throughout my life in ways I had only dreamt about before. I always wanted that life with God that you hear people speak of, and as they do, your heart races, truly yearning to know what it would be like, but yet your flesh shuts you up and convinces you that you are not good enough or it would be too hard, and you only have to BE saved to enter the Kingdom of God, not live like it, right?...Wow, He is so good. So many times I thought I could bargain with God in this life, when all He wanted was me, all He wanted was for me to submit and truly see that He was enough. I am not saying that He wants us to live a life of solitude, thats not it at all, but He needs us to truly understand that no matter what He is our life source and He is all we Need. We should never long for the creation more than the Creator. He has been so sweet and revealed Himself to me in so many ways in such a short amount of time and its been because I have been listening and watching for Him. He has been there, wanting my attention, the entire time, but now I have finally turned to look at Him, and He is magnificent! If you are not where you need to be with God, maybe you don't even know Him as your Lord and Savior, I urge you to take the jump into the Living Waters. The life you make with Him will never return void, and He will make it all worth while. He never promised that following Him would be easy, but He showed that it would be very worth it. Please don't let Satan deceive you into thinking otherwise. I do not mean to preach but I feel compelled to share with others the reason why I am the way that I am. If you have any questions or want to talk about this, but do not want to comment on my blog, please email me. I would love to share, with anyone, Christ, who He is, and how you can have a relationship with Him. This is not about religion but a relationship. Here is my email: martinc88@lsus.edu